I miss the person I once was. Before around 2010 I was a much more content and happy person. Well, not very happy, I still cried a lot and got very depressed over silly things, but it’s much worse now. I think it happened because of some failures I had and because I’m too scared to deal with stuff. I talk most of the time about things that makes me sad and I focus on them, instead of being focused on the good things I’ve got. I try to change it, but I feel like I can’t. I feel like whnever I try to make things better, I fail to do so, and I remain upset. Some stuff cheer me up for a short time, but not for the long run. I’m not sure how to do that.